Guadalupe Reyes

Everything is nuevo

                                              Like a baby’s first step, I wobbled, then fell

                   todo es nuevo otra vez

                     internally sobbing uncontrollably

                   attempts to change my mentality is a long term goal

                     hoping to put an end to these rapidly abrupt lagrimas

              How injudicious

               20 years of imprudence

               always leaving mi madre’s red knitted scarf behind during winter

 mi padre’s yellow umbrella during spring showers

         for summertime mi hermanas spf 50+ sunblock and joy for being anywhere but inside

           En el otoño me di cuenta que quería vivir

   i cried madly due to this

     a million splattered teardrops

laughed hysterically at my broken image in el charco

Throw everything at me

all at once

let me do it all

estoy preparada para un desafío

 do not want to miss my opportunity to live

Give me a voice to scream

una boca para sonreír

arms to hug

manos para tocar

legs to run

pies para pisar fuerte

ears to hear God’s voice

Dame ojos para verme a mi misma

It pains me to now know this late what I could have done before

many privileges taken for granted

mis queridos siempre empujados muy lejos de mi intencionalmente

never satisfied with my accomplishments

at times I feel as though it is too late

then I heard a voice

his voice convinced me

music galvanized me

a cold breeze me guio

Everything is new

                                              Like a baby’s first step, I wobbled, then fell

                   everything is new again

                     internally sobbing uncontrollably

                   attempts to change my mentality is a long term goal

                     hoping to put an end to these rapidly abrupt tears

              How injudicious

               20 years of imprudence

               always leaving my mother’s red knitted scarf behind during winter

 my father’s yellow umbrella during spring showers

         for summertime my sisters spf 50+ sunblock and joy for being anywhere but inside

           In the fall i realized that I wanted to live  

   i cried madly due to this

     a million splattered teardrops

laughed hysterically at my broken image in the puddle

Throw everything at me

all at once

let me do it all

i am up for a challenge

 do not want to miss my opportunity to live

Give me a voice to scream

a mouth to smile

arms to hug

hands to touch

legs to run

feet to stomp

ears to hear God’s voice

give me eyes to see myself

It pains me to now know this late what I could have done before

many privileges taken for granted

my loved ones always pushed away

never satisfied with my accomplishments

at times I feel as though it is too late

then I heard a voice

his voice convinced me

music galvanized me

a cold breeze guided me

Hypocrite

Awake and surrounded by familiarity

heaviness that once was has now been replaced

pursuing a brighter light

fresher air

new aspirations alongside a thread of hope

Be better

improve yourself

it is all about you after all

all for you

be selfless

Nothing can be done

nothing to be done at this point

that is their situation

do not intervene  

Not relevant unless it directly affects us

not considered an issue until it becomes one

Beyond our control

supernatural power is the ultimate beholder

God’s intentions not mine

not my fault

not yours

not anyone’s

We are just here because that is what is expected of us

it what we are meant to do

it is what we do best

why risk everything for something that is not there?

Not sure how I got here and you are not either

it feels right but it may be wrong

am not sure where I am going

do not know where I want to go

can tell you an idea but you will never understand

and perhaps I will not fully know either

Think realistically instead of a fantasy

pretend that you care but really do not

do what one love is

be specific and do not be broad

for if you do you will mess it all up

Keep the pebble

tossing it in the water will not make an affect but an illusion

fight back tears and be emotionless

keep in your weaknesses

build your wall strong and never get too attached

create a new image for yourself

do not be yourself

and smile regardless

 

 

False Hope

There are times when I wonder why breathing is too much to handle

painful at its worst

terrible lung capacity

at other times it is spiritually motivating

essential to be exact

Deep down below clear crisp blue waves

but it is difficult to identify and receive help when all you see is clear blue

There is a sound

attempting to reach the surface

a long way to go still

Breathe without hesitation

feel good do good

Waves have now become stronger

hanging on a thread of loose hope but then you realize

and your fingers start to slip

one by one

you have helped them

but eventually drowned yourself

dragged to the bottom at a slow pace

Predators become loose awaiting its next prey

your light seems to have vanished

Used to be able to hear the sea

now can not even hear a single raindrop

Guadalupe Reyes is a rising senior majoring in Health Care Administration at Mary Baldwin University. She enjoys being outdoors, trying new eateries, being involved in various extracurricular activities, meeting new individuals and surrounding herself with her loved ones. For her, writing is not only a way for her to express her deepest thoughts, but a gateway that builds and over time cultivates relationships. Essentially it is a freedom of expression which allows her to connect with others through their life stories.

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