UNDERDRESSED

 

Tonight,

 

Mrs. Dalway has pearls—a long, thin string

wrapped three times around her sinewy neck

dangling like loosened chains—bought

with the money left by her late husband

after he was found dead due to

undisclosed circumstances.

 

Mr. Loren sports uncharacteristically

humble cufflinks—square, clean little

diamonds, simple and fresh—most likely

a gift from his twenty-three year old

mistress with the thin waist and

even thinner wallet.

 

Mrs. Loren wears her ring obnoxiously

flexing her fingers into view every

thirty seconds or so. The hefty diamond

like a trophy, like the trophy she was

until she turned thirty-five and

Mr. Loren began taking especially long

business trips.

 

Laurena, even, wears rubies.

They rest in the divots of her collarbone

before plunging down in a straight

line between her full breasts. Mr. Grevald,

it seems, wears Laurena. She dangles

off his arm, priceless in her exotic beauty.

Rare, glittering, silent Laurena—even she

wears rubies.

 

In a moment: my skin blushes, all too aware

of the nakedness of my collarbone,

my earlobes, my fingers.

All too aware of how underdressed

I am.

 

In the next moment, your hand

finds my waist, your lips brush against

the shell of my ear and I think, suddenly,

that sometimes love looks better

underdressed.

 

 

UNRAVELING

 

New England in the fall. Maine,

specifically. A small house

near Camden, wine colored shutters

and a cluttered kitchen. The heat

is on but the house never feels

quite as warm as it looks

from the outside.

 

My hair has turned brown

with the leaves, the water on

the stove boils with an

urgency incongruent with the

otherwise lazy comforts

of the house.

 

I make tea and the two lobsters

rest on the counter, claws bound,

watching. I feel naked, suddenly.

 

I bring the tea to her, study

the way her eyebrows move,

the way they bend together

intently as she reads. Notice threads

untying, loosening themselves

from the blanket thrown

over her lap. She will be

upset when she sees. Should

fix those.

 

Have you put the lobsters

in yet? she asks, pausing

from Everything I Never

Told You, folding the corner

of page eighty-three

inwards.

 

Back to the kitchen, to

the counter where the lobsters

sit waiting, bound. The water

is at a full boil now, has been

for a while, really.

 

There is a recipe: a

methodology. We have two

options—throw the lobsters

in the bubbling water, place

the lid on top, walk away.

Ignore the clattering, the

clambering, the clutching

of their claws against

the side of the pot.

 

Or there is the knife.

Plunge it into their heads

between the stalks,

devil and mercy all

at once. Then the water,

no clattering or clambering—

just a peaceful simmer.

 

Have you put the lobsters

in yet? she asks. I pause

unsure of which murder

I would like to commit

today. Unsure of how

to tell her that her

blanket is falling

apart.

 

Unsure of how to tell her

that for me, this house

burns cold, that the lobsters

are lucky. That they don’t

have to choose how

they die.

UNRAVELING

   New England in the fall. Maine,

specifically. A small house

near Camden, wine colored shutters

and a cluttered kitchen. The heat

is on but the house never feels

quite as warm as it looks

from the outside.

   My hair has turned brown

with the leaves, the water on

the stove boils with an

urgency incongruent with the

otherwise lazy comforts

of the house.

   I make tea and the two lobsters

rest on the counter, claws bound,

watching. I feel naked, suddenly.

   I bring the tea to her, study

the way her eyebrows move,

the way they bend together

intently as she reads. Notice threads

untying, loosening themselves

from the blanket thrown

over her lap. She will be

upset when she sees. Should

fix those.

   Have you put the lobsters

in yet? she asks, pausing

from Everything I Never

Told You, folding the corner

of page eighty-three

inwards.

   Back to the kitchen, to

the counter where the lobsters

sit waiting, bound. The water

is at a full boil now, has been

for a while, really.

   There is a recipe: a

methodology. We have two

options—throw the lobsters

in the bubbling water, place

the lid on top, walk away.

Ignore the clattering, the

clambering, the clutching

of their claws against

the side of the pot.

   Or there is the knife.

Plunge it into their heads

between the stalks,

devil and mercy all

at once. Then the water,

no clattering or clambering—

just a peaceful simmer.

   Have you put the lobsters

in yet? she asks. I pause

unsure of which murder

I would like to commit

today. Unsure of how

to tell her that her

blanket is falling

apart.

   Unsure of how to tell her

that for me, this house

burns cold, that the lobsters

are lucky. That they don’t

have to choose how

they die.